I am a
Master of Disbelief -- yep, the Science of rejecting the possibility of the
actual happening of a thing, a situation or a person that I so-o-o-o want in my
life.
I was an
expert at Disbelief since childhood. I proved that theory true over and over
again. I was born with the Silver Spoon of Disbelief in my mouth.
(It's probably the only thing I believe in...) I could be royalty in the
Kingdom of Disbelief, I swear. A Princess. Her Royal Highness.
I had an
early start. I practised disbelieving since childhood. A child genius, I was. As
a mite living under my parents' roof, going to school and doing all the things
that normal children that age do, I disbelieved that I was worth my parents'
love.
Then, I
brought that science with me to my teenage years. Oh, how I proved myself right
again. I really did grow up well. (Smile with a smirk). It was the time of my
life -- to disbelief that anything I wanted could ever happen -- the cute guy, the exam scores, the dresses.... everything
that I wanted then, was NOT going to be mine! I should have felt delighted.
Then, in my
adult years, I practised that Science at work too -- disbelieving every step of
the way that I was worth that job, or that promotion, or that salary. I
disbelieved that I was worthy of being in the right relationship with the right
guy -- that he'd even want me in the first place. Oh, how could I have even
believed that!
Then, I
founded my own company. Oh, wow! My dream come true, all my ambitions being
realized at last, all that I ever wanted to do! I was on my way -- NOT! Again,
I proved that I was THE MASTER OF DISBELIEF! Haha! It should be funny. It
should tickle my bones to know that I am right -- yet again! I am not just a
Master of Disbelief. I am also a Prophesier.
My life has
been success after success -- whoopee -- of Disbelief. I don't need to live
another lifetime to understand its ins and outs. There are no steps to follow.
No guidebooks to read. No book for me to write and publish -- except this
little article.
So, having
achieved mastery, what's next? Exactly. What's next? Been there. Done that. Oh,
you don't know how far I've been and how much I've done. I can't even
believe my own achievement. I'm so proud of myself. Yay....
Something
happened just a few weeks ago. I had been practising Disbelief as always, and
yet for years I wanted to also master
Belief. Maybe it was an invisible arrow from the heavens; a lightning strike in
my soul; caved-in moments in the recesses of the universe.
I suddenly
knew. I knew -- not just a little, not just bit by bit. But I knew!
I actually knew! Now I know 100%.
I know what
is Belief.
